Realization

Last night the Kollage girls had our first mani/pedi friday! As we were sitting there having a good ole time and telling stories and such, I came to a realization. That these beautiful and intelligent women are my sisters. These women some who ive been closer than others are still my sisters and will always and forever remain my sisters. I came to a realization that I dont have any friends. I think this is because I let one person ruin that for me. I was so focused on pleasing someone else and being like something that I wasnt and in the end I ended up with less than what I started with. If i could take back everything and start all over, I would. i would do everything differently. I wouldnt be such a bitch or have such a bad attitude problem. Honestly, that wasnt me. That was me trying to prove something. Me trying to be something i wasnt and I realize now that if I was just me then I would be happier. I would have friends and not feel like im alone all the time. Even when I had friends i felt like I was alone but that was because I wasnt me. Its hard coming to realizations and having to admit them but sometimes it takes for one to look at where theyve come from to make where theyre going better. Hopefully this summer I can make new friends and mend old friendships. Hopefully my new friends will see me as me and my old friends will realize my change...